Jesse Walters

The Church Next Door: My Cult Experience and How I Got Out While Staying Close to God

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I’m Just Along for the Ride

I first want to apologize to all of my followers out there.  It has been nearly a month since my last post and I don’t mean to leave you all hanging.  I truly appreciate your support and can’t thank you enough for it.

The reason I have slacked in the blogging world lately is because of this overwhelming sensation I’ve had for what has been going on for little over a month now, yet seems like years.  As I get older I’m becoming more convinced that our lives are like algorithms… or at least mine is.  I have felt like I’ve been on top of the world at times, and others felt like I was at the bottom.  There have been times where I felt like I was doing nothing in this life and others where I was so overwhelmed with everything that was going on.  And it’s not like one thing will happen and bring me up or down, everything comes crashing in at one time.

I wonder why that is?

I’m a believer in that everything happens or a reason; that God has this big plan for me and I’m just along for the ride.  So why is He throwing everything at me at once?  Why can’t he just give me one thing, let me adapt, and then give me another?  It would be so much easier that way!

Unfortunately, we just can’t control things in our lives sometimes, and when we try to it usually ends in disaster.

When I was 20 years old God really tested me.  Within a four week period I had 1. Moved out of my parent’s house for this first time. 2. Broke up with my girlfriend of over three years. 3. Started attending a college where I didn’t know anyone.  4. Started a new job.  And on top of all of that I was going through depression and numerous religious struggles while a part of a cult that I talk about in my book.  I was overwhelmed beyond belief!

I tried to take control.  I told myself over and over that I could fix it but I couldn’t.  I had to give in to God.  I had to let the Big Plan take its course, and it did.  It all worked out.  I came out of there happier than ever and closer to my friends and family that I thought I’d ever be.

I fell into that trap again (on a smaller scale thank God) with more recent factors that came into my life.  I tried to control it but then I though back on when I was 20.  I just have to let it go and stop worrying.  Let God take control.  I’m just along for the ride.

The One Thing That Determines Everything

It’s crazy to me to think how vital timing is in what we do with our lives, how we do it, and if what were doing is even possible at that time.  What’s even crazier is how perfect everything falls into place sometimes.

Your job, your friends, where you live, who you married, the list keeps going.  All of these things come back to timing.

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The One Decision You NEED to Make

“Play is a state of mind.  The world is your playground, people are your playmates, and your work is a game… You don’t need more free time.  You don’t need more money.  You can change the world when you change how you see it.  It’s only a choice.”- Charlie Hoehn

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We Are Never a Finished Product

After submitting my post last week, I realized I have a little bit more to say on what defines us.  Before I talked about not letting our past define us.  Well, what about today?  What is happening today and tomorrow definitely plays a role in what defines each and every one of us, BUT I want to make the point that it doesn’t have to be what defines us the rest of our lives! Continue reading

The Benefits of Failure

Life is hard, so hard that no one in the history of mankind has perfected it and never will.  That sounds scary.  It’s like God set us up to fail.  I’m a perfectionist at heart and accepting failure is a daunting task.  I want it done right, right now, and failure doesn’t allow me to have that.  Continue reading

Take a Step Back and Breathe

Confession: It’s hard from me to say “no” to things.  I tend to take on new responsibilities without thinking.  And when I get my mind set on something I can’t stop thinking about it. Continue reading

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