Jesse Walters

The Church Next Door: My Cult Experience and How I Got Out While Staying Close to God

Tag: Happiness (page 1 of 3)

DON’T READ THIS! I’m Not a Good Writer

Why are you reading this?!  I said I’m not a good writer, blogger, typer, whatever you want to call it.  You don’t listen!  Well… I guess if you’re going to read this I may as well have a point to my story…. Continue reading

Hardwired to Worship

When a person hits rock bottom only truth can come from it.  How we feel, think, and respond during that time says a lot about who we really are.  Continue reading

Seeing the Good in the Bad

I read an article last week that really caught my attention.  It’s titled 12 Signs You’re Doing Much Better Than You Think You Are by Anna Bashedly.  Of all these 12 things I can either relate to them personally or have seen others be affected by it.  They all helped me see a different a perspective, shedding light on something that really didn’t have much light before. Continue reading

Are You Happy With What You Do 2,080 Hours a Year?

The job hunt.  Everyone has done it to one extent or another.  We can all relate.  But what’s your motive when you apply for that job?  Is it money?  Your daily commute won’t be as long?  Or is something completely different? Continue reading

I’m Just Along for the Ride

I first want to apologize to all of my followers out there.  It has been nearly a month since my last post and I don’t mean to leave you all hanging.  I truly appreciate your support and can’t thank you enough for it.

The reason I have slacked in the blogging world lately is because of this overwhelming sensation I’ve had for what has been going on for little over a month now, yet seems like years.  As I get older I’m becoming more convinced that our lives are like algorithms… or at least mine is.  I have felt like I’ve been on top of the world at times, and others felt like I was at the bottom.  There have been times where I felt like I was doing nothing in this life and others where I was so overwhelmed with everything that was going on.  And it’s not like one thing will happen and bring me up or down, everything comes crashing in at one time.

I wonder why that is?

I’m a believer in that everything happens or a reason; that God has this big plan for me and I’m just along for the ride.  So why is He throwing everything at me at once?  Why can’t he just give me one thing, let me adapt, and then give me another?  It would be so much easier that way!

Unfortunately, we just can’t control things in our lives sometimes, and when we try to it usually ends in disaster.

When I was 20 years old God really tested me.  Within a four week period I had 1. Moved out of my parent’s house for this first time. 2. Broke up with my girlfriend of over three years. 3. Started attending a college where I didn’t know anyone.  4. Started a new job.  And on top of all of that I was going through depression and numerous religious struggles while a part of a cult that I talk about in my book.  I was overwhelmed beyond belief!

I tried to take control.  I told myself over and over that I could fix it but I couldn’t.  I had to give in to God.  I had to let the Big Plan take its course, and it did.  It all worked out.  I came out of there happier than ever and closer to my friends and family that I thought I’d ever be.

I fell into that trap again (on a smaller scale thank God) with more recent factors that came into my life.  I tried to control it but then I though back on when I was 20.  I just have to let it go and stop worrying.  Let God take control.  I’m just along for the ride.

Live Today as if it Were Your Last

I lost a high school classmate of mine is a car accident last weekend.  Granted, we didn’t stay in touch and I hadn’t talked to her in years but my prayers still go out to her friends and family for their loss.  25 years old and boom… gone.  It’s scary to think about.  Continue reading

The Difference Between You and Me

When leaving my old church and getting out of that dreadful cult experience, I grew very anxious and worried about fitting in.  If you look back on my previous blog posts I talk about the constant feeling of no one knowing who I really am.  Yeah, I could meet new people, say who I am, where I’m from and what I do, but no one REALLY knew who I was until they hear my storyContinue reading

Let There Be Silence!

One of the biggest struggles I had to deal with while I was in my religious cult and the recovery process after was my social insecurities.  I’m an introvert by nature so that didn’t help the situation either, but that church forced me to not want to talk to the “outside world,” which included my family and childhood friends.  It also became clear to me that after my awesome experience in Denver a lot of others with similar cult experiences to mine struggle with it. Continue reading

My One Regret

We only have one life.  We want to make it count and push to achieve great things, yet sometimes we’re scared to make those decisions.  So what do we do?  Do we just sit there wait for an opportunity to come?  No.  We put your mind to something and we work for it, no matter how hard it is. Continue reading

Will That Hunk of Metal Make Me Happy?

One thing about me is that I really like cars, trucks, ATVs, anything with a motor really.  They’ve always intrigued me since I was a little kid.  Dad put me on a little 50cc Suzuki when I was about 5 years old and there was no looking back after that. Continue reading

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