Jesse Walters

The Church Next Door: My Cult Experience and How I Got Out While Staying Close to God

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DON’T READ THIS! I’m Not a Good Writer

Why are you reading this?!  I said I’m not a good writer, blogger, typer, whatever you want to call it.  You don’t listen!  Well… I guess if you’re going to read this I may as well have a point to my story…. Continue reading

Seeing the Good in the Bad

I read an article last week that really caught my attention.  It’s titled 12 Signs You’re Doing Much Better Than You Think You Are by Anna Bashedly.  Of all these 12 things I can either relate to them personally or have seen others be affected by it.  They all helped me see a different a perspective, shedding light on something that really didn’t have much light before. Continue reading

I’m Just Along for the Ride

I first want to apologize to all of my followers out there.  It has been nearly a month since my last post and I don’t mean to leave you all hanging.  I truly appreciate your support and can’t thank you enough for it.

The reason I have slacked in the blogging world lately is because of this overwhelming sensation I’ve had for what has been going on for little over a month now, yet seems like years.  As I get older I’m becoming more convinced that our lives are like algorithms… or at least mine is.  I have felt like I’ve been on top of the world at times, and others felt like I was at the bottom.  There have been times where I felt like I was doing nothing in this life and others where I was so overwhelmed with everything that was going on.  And it’s not like one thing will happen and bring me up or down, everything comes crashing in at one time.

I wonder why that is?

I’m a believer in that everything happens or a reason; that God has this big plan for me and I’m just along for the ride.  So why is He throwing everything at me at once?  Why can’t he just give me one thing, let me adapt, and then give me another?  It would be so much easier that way!

Unfortunately, we just can’t control things in our lives sometimes, and when we try to it usually ends in disaster.

When I was 20 years old God really tested me.  Within a four week period I had 1. Moved out of my parent’s house for this first time. 2. Broke up with my girlfriend of over three years. 3. Started attending a college where I didn’t know anyone.  4. Started a new job.  And on top of all of that I was going through depression and numerous religious struggles while a part of a cult that I talk about in my book.  I was overwhelmed beyond belief!

I tried to take control.  I told myself over and over that I could fix it but I couldn’t.  I had to give in to God.  I had to let the Big Plan take its course, and it did.  It all worked out.  I came out of there happier than ever and closer to my friends and family that I thought I’d ever be.

I fell into that trap again (on a smaller scale thank God) with more recent factors that came into my life.  I tried to control it but then I though back on when I was 20.  I just have to let it go and stop worrying.  Let God take control.  I’m just along for the ride.

You Failed?… Good Job!

This past weekend I had a discussion with a relative of mine.  To say the least, he’s been a very successful businessman throughout the years pursuing various entrepreneurial ventures.  Every time I speak with him I get the urge to take out a notebook and write down our conversations.  He’s very inspiring and I feel like he could make you your next million bucks if you talk to him long enough.  Continue reading

We Are Never a Finished Product

After submitting my post last week, I realized I have a little bit more to say on what defines us.  Before I talked about not letting our past define us.  Well, what about today?  What is happening today and tomorrow definitely plays a role in what defines each and every one of us, BUT I want to make the point that it doesn’t have to be what defines us the rest of our lives! Continue reading

The Benefits of Failure

Life is hard, so hard that no one in the history of mankind has perfected it and never will.  That sounds scary.  It’s like God set us up to fail.  I’m a perfectionist at heart and accepting failure is a daunting task.  I want it done right, right now, and failure doesn’t allow me to have that.  Continue reading

Fear Just Slows Us Down

There are days when I have a mini-freak out thinking “WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING?!”  I went to college, had a steady job, and then one day I get up and walk away?  For what?  I type away on a laptop and anxiously wait for someone to “like” my blog post or social media page.

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