Jesse Walters

The Church Next Door: My Cult Experience and How I Got Out While Staying Close to God

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Hardwired to Worship

When a person hits rock bottom only truth can come from it.  How we feel, think, and respond during that time says a lot about who we really are.  Continue reading

Best Author Finalist! PLEASE VOTE!

Hello All!

I excited to say that I’m in the final voting stages for Best Author of Inside Columbia Magazine.  If you voted for me in the first round I truly appreciate it.  Now, I need you to vote AGAIN for the final round.  Polls close on the 31st.  Please click the link below and find my name in the “People” category.

http://www.insidecolumbia.net/Best-Of-Columbia/

 

Thank you all for you support over this last year.  It’s exciting to see how far my book has come!

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Seeing the Good in the Bad

I read an article last week that really caught my attention.  It’s titled 12 Signs You’re Doing Much Better Than You Think You Are by Anna Bashedly.  Of all these 12 things I can either relate to them personally or have seen others be affected by it.  They all helped me see a different a perspective, shedding light on something that really didn’t have much light before. Continue reading

I’m Just Along for the Ride

I first want to apologize to all of my followers out there.  It has been nearly a month since my last post and I don’t mean to leave you all hanging.  I truly appreciate your support and can’t thank you enough for it.

The reason I have slacked in the blogging world lately is because of this overwhelming sensation I’ve had for what has been going on for little over a month now, yet seems like years.  As I get older I’m becoming more convinced that our lives are like algorithms… or at least mine is.  I have felt like I’ve been on top of the world at times, and others felt like I was at the bottom.  There have been times where I felt like I was doing nothing in this life and others where I was so overwhelmed with everything that was going on.  And it’s not like one thing will happen and bring me up or down, everything comes crashing in at one time.

I wonder why that is?

I’m a believer in that everything happens or a reason; that God has this big plan for me and I’m just along for the ride.  So why is He throwing everything at me at once?  Why can’t he just give me one thing, let me adapt, and then give me another?  It would be so much easier that way!

Unfortunately, we just can’t control things in our lives sometimes, and when we try to it usually ends in disaster.

When I was 20 years old God really tested me.  Within a four week period I had 1. Moved out of my parent’s house for this first time. 2. Broke up with my girlfriend of over three years. 3. Started attending a college where I didn’t know anyone.  4. Started a new job.  And on top of all of that I was going through depression and numerous religious struggles while a part of a cult that I talk about in my book.  I was overwhelmed beyond belief!

I tried to take control.  I told myself over and over that I could fix it but I couldn’t.  I had to give in to God.  I had to let the Big Plan take its course, and it did.  It all worked out.  I came out of there happier than ever and closer to my friends and family that I thought I’d ever be.

I fell into that trap again (on a smaller scale thank God) with more recent factors that came into my life.  I tried to control it but then I though back on when I was 20.  I just have to let it go and stop worrying.  Let God take control.  I’m just along for the ride.

Let There Be Silence!

One of the biggest struggles I had to deal with while I was in my religious cult and the recovery process after was my social insecurities.  I’m an introvert by nature so that didn’t help the situation either, but that church forced me to not want to talk to the “outside world,” which included my family and childhood friends.  It also became clear to me that after my awesome experience in Denver a lot of others with similar cult experiences to mine struggle with it. Continue reading

A Broken Church is a Good Church

“I prefer a church which is bruised, hurting and dirty because it has been out on the streets, rather than a church which is unhealthy from being confined and from clinging to its own security,” – Pope Francis

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The One Decision You NEED to Make

“Play is a state of mind.  The world is your playground, people are your playmates, and your work is a game… You don’t need more free time.  You don’t need more money.  You can change the world when you change how you see it.  It’s only a choice.”- Charlie Hoehn

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My Trip to Denver… WOW

Now that I’ve had the full experience of going to Denver to speak at the Myth Taken Conference for EMNR, it has helped me see the real need for this issue and has only strengthened my passion to get my book out there and help people through their cult experiences. Continue reading

Secrets Don’t Make Friends

This post overlaps with last week’s post but I felt the need to expand on it a little more.

It’s been over four years now since I left the church that brought so much pain, depression, guilt and anxiety into my own and my family’s lives.  It was one of the most significant moments of my life yet, I didn’t actually start telling people about it until long after that.  Continue reading

Stress Management

I read this blurb online recently and thought I’d share it with you:

A young lady confidently walked around the room with a raised glass of water while leading a seminar and explaining stress management to her audience. Everyone knew she was going to ask the ultimate question, ‘Half empty or half full?’ She fooled them all. “How heavy is this glass of water?” she inquired with a smile. Answers called out ranged from 8 oz. To 20 oz. Continue reading

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